Anyway....

I’ve never been a fan of country songs or even know much about country singers but when I first heard Martina McBride sang her song, Anyway in one of the American Idol episodes, I immediately fell in love with it.

I find the song very inspirational. The lyrics provide deep meaning and it truly touched my heart.

Anyway (from Waking Up Laughing album)
You can spend your whole life building something from nothing
One storm can come and blow it all away
Build it anyway

You can chase a dream that seems so out of reach and you know it might not ever come your way
Dream it anyway

Chorus:
God is great, but sometimes life ain’t good
And when I pray it doesn’t always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway, I do it anyway

This world’s gone crazy and it’s hard to believe that tomorrow will be better than today
Believe it anyway

You can love someone with all your heart, for all the right reasons, and in a moment they can choose to walk away
Love ‘em anyway

Repeat Chorus

You can pour your soul out singing a song you believe in that tomorrow they’ll forget you ever sang
Sing it anyway, sing it anyway

I sing, I dream, I love, anyway

The song brings out a positive message. It makes me feel good about myself and I realize I can do anything in my life as long as I believe in it. If things aren’t going my way, I shouldn’t simply give up. I have to keep on aiming for the best.

We may not always get what we want in life but that’s ok. We have to keep on doing what we think is best and have faith that something good will turn out in the end. What’s important is that we must always be sincere in whatever we do.

This is a good song to listen to anytime you feel down. It has a way of making your spirits go high! Well, at least it does for me :)

Sharing session

Yes, people. Hard as it may seem to believe, I actually do have feelings, you know.

Just because I don’t say much doesn’t necessarily mean I’m not affected by what people say.

Just because my tolerance level is quite high doesn’t necessarily mean people can think “It's ok, *Trueblue* wouldn’t mind”.

Just because I appear calm and relaxed doesn’t necessarily mean I don’t have my own set of problems.

Yes, I do get stressed. Maybe I don’t openly show it but then again, that’s the way I am. People deal with their problems in different ways, right?

Oh and yes, I do let people tease me. I’m very patient about it and most of the time I smile or just laugh along. Kena sporting la kan? But does that make me appear weak? Does that mean that people can keep on doing it whenever they want? Sometimes I just can’t be bothered to respond because I know people are just making jokes and trying to have fun. So I just give this sweet smile of mine and let it go. But don’t la be sensitive when I start doing the teasing. Hey, if you guys can do it, surely I can have my fair share of fun too, right?

As mentioned earlier, I’m very good about being patient. But, like any normal human being I do have my limits. After a lot of keeping things to myself and giving in to people, don’t be surprised when I suddenly explode. No, I won’t go and shoot people but I can snap at you. I am capable of saying harsh things too, you know. So don’t be shocked or get taken aback. It’s funny how some people are surprised when I suddenly get sarcastic. They might think: "Wow! *Trueblue* said that?". Hey, I’m not all so sugary, sweet and nice all the time.

I am a firm believer of: If you don’t like it when people do or say certain things to you, you yourself shouldn’t be doing it to other people. It’s all common sense, right?

Think about it.

Anyway, on an unrelated matter, I was going through the blogthings site and thought this is something I was curious to find out :)

What kind of panties are you?

You Are Basic Panties

You are a laid back chick with a real natural beauty.You can make unwashed hair and minimal make-up super sexy.Men tend to notice you show the "real you" - and they appreciate it.And while basic makes boring for some, it looks classic on you.

What Kind of Panties Are You?

The morning Trueblue turned green

Oh my God. I seriously feel like puking now. I can actually feel myself turning green.

I think someone must have eaten a whole ‘papan’ of petai last night.

How do I know?

Went to the toilet (at the office) and the moment I entered…the moment I opened the door, I could feel the wind blowing a strong smell of shit + petai towards my face.

Yuckkkkkkkkkkkkk…………..

I seriously wanted to pee and thought I could tolerate the smell. But nooooooo…the disgusting smell was too much to bear. I was desperate for fresh air so I quickly ran out. Its ok, I think I’d rather hold it in for now (but don’t know how long, though).

*sigh* This is definitely not a good start to a Monday morning.

Weird happenings around the world

I was reading the papers the other day and there was this particular article that caught my eye.

A Sudanese man who married a goat (a what?) was in mourning today after his wife died when she swallowed a plastic bag.

Charles Tombe shot to fame last year when he tied the knot with Rose.

A court ordered him to marry the beast "to save her honour" after he was caught making amorous advances toward the mother-of-one in the middle of the night.

Mr Tombe and Rose are believed to have lived happily ever after (I can’t imagine how) until her life was cruelly cut short.

The story, which became one of the world's best read tales, began in Juba, southern Sudan, in February last year when the BBC reported that the then owner of the goat, Mr Alifi, was awoken in the night by a strange noise.

Walking out of his traditional hut, he was confronted by the sight of Mr Tombe and Rose in a passionate embrace.

The Times reported that Mr Alifi said: 'When I asked him "What are you doing there?" he fell off the back of the goat, so I captured and tied him up."

When Mr Tombe was brought before a council of elders he claimed he was drunk when Rose caught his eye. (seriously?? He must have been reaaaalllllllyyyy drunk)

He was ordered to pay Mr Alifi a "dowry" of 15,000 Sudanese dinars - about £25 - since he was considered to have used the goat "as his wife."

In the same way a man is expected to marry a woman if he has sex with her in southern Sudan, Mr Tombe was deemed to have married Rose.

However, despite a happy marriage (I wonder if they kept doing it), money was tight and Rose died after swallowing a plastic bag as she scavenged for food on the streets of Juba. (poor Rose)

She is said to have left a male kid - not a boy (thank God!). It is not yet known whether she will be cremated or used in a local speciality of goat curry.

Sounds a bit of a nonsense to me. *sigh* Weird people like this actually exist in this world.

A year older

“Happy Birthday to me
Happy Birthday to me
Happy Birthday to Trueblue
Happy Birthday to me”

Yep, it’s my birthday today. 32 years old. My, my…Has 1 year really gone by that fast?

Back when I was in my teens, I thought adults who were in their 30s looked so matured. I would look at them and think “Gosh, I can’t imagine what I’d look like at that age!”.

I remembered 2 years ago, I was dreading to reach the big 3-0 age. It felt like I was entering another era, another phase in my life and I wasn’t sure I was ready for it. Being in the 20s was fine. It was the age where we were a little bit matured and just about entered the adult phase. It was the age where in a way we could still get away with things because we were still experimenting life. I had this vision that being in the 30s meant that ‘yes, you’re much older (you’ll look older too). It’s time to get serious. It’s time to get a hold of your life’. So it felt kind of scary. Gone are the days when people called you ‘adik’. People would start thinking of you as a ‘kakak’ or an ‘aunty’. So yes, you’ll definitely look older!

My guy friends (who have past 30) told me then that I shouldn’t worry. Women start to peak when they are in their 30s. They will blossom and become very much matured. They will also be more experienced in certain areas (if you know what I mean *wink*). I couldn’t quite picture what they meant at the time so I just had to trust them. It’s not like I could stop time anyway.

Now that I’m already in my 30s, I agree, it’s not as bad as I thought it was. It’s not bad at all actually. I mean, ageing is a natural process of life. Its not like the moment you hit 30, you’re gonna look like a sack of potatoes. It’s all in the mind. If you’re really concerned about looking old, then take steps to take care of your health. Do the normal stuff like exercise and eat well. Women in their 30s can still look hot, right? :)

I’ve learned many things since turning 30. Yes, I’ve definitely become more matured. I try not to whine about petty things because there’s seriously more important things in life. I have set my priorities and pretty much have an idea what I want in life. I’ve learnt to also be more thankful and not to take things or people for granted. I’m thankful to have family and friends who love me. I’m thankful for being healthy, for having the strength and energy to do things. I’m thankful for all the experienced I’ve gained. Sure, there were regrets but I’ve learnt from the mistakes and its time to just move on. Plan well for your future and enjoy life the best way you can. Age doesn’t really stop you.

So a word of advice to those who dread turning 30, don’t be. Trust me; it’s not at all that bad.

I’m 32 years old today and looking forward to greater years ahead!

P/S: Today is also Bono’s (U2) and Nick Heidfeld’s (BMW Sauber driver) birthday. So Happy Birthday to Bono and Nick!

The best birthday pressie of the day

The 51 things

Eiseai tagged me to do this some time ago. Sorry it took so long, dear :)

1. Your gender:
Very much a female :)

2. Single?
Not anymore

3. Want to be?
A better person

4. Age?
32 in 10 days!

5. Age you wish you were:
Being a teenager again would be good but this age is not actually that bad. Like they say, with age, comes experience

6. The color of your eyes:
Dark brown

7. Yourself:
Too nice

8. Your Hair:
A lot! :) Must have it layered….

9. Your Favorite Item:
Has to be my phone

10. Your Favorite Drink:
Nothing in particular. Warm water is still the best, I think

11. The Room You Are In:
I’m in the office now. Don’t have a room (just a gundu maaa).

12. Your Pets:
Used to have a cat called ‘Meow’ but she left us. Sob..sob

13. What you want to be in Ten Years:
If my other half hits the jackpot, I hope to retire young and do nothing. Hihi. But seriously, I hope I’m still healthy so that I’ll be able to do a lot of things, especially to take care of my loved ones. Career wise, of course I want to be in a better position than where I am right now.

14. What You're Not:
A control freak

15. One of Your Wish list Items:
The discipline to exercise

16. The Last Thing You Did:
Spring clean my office desk

17. Your Favorite Book:
Don’t have one in particular but I love Jodi Picoult’s books.

18. The Last Thing You Ate:
Lamb chop, fries and coleslaw (last night’s dinner)

19. Your Life:
Is like a roller coaster. Many ups and downs

20. Your Mood:
Bored at the moment. I should have taken leave today. Yawnnnnnn…..

21. Favorite color:
Dah nama pun Trueblue, so its obviously BLUE

22. My lover is:
My other half

23. I'm listening to:
Timbaland’s Give it to me

24. Maybe I should:
Start doing some work!

25. I love:
My family, of course

26. My best friends are:
My close friends (they know who they are)

27. I don't understand:
Nasty people

28. I miss:
Being slim :)

29. A lot of people say:
that I'm too patient

30. The meaning of my name:
I don’t think it has any meaning

31. Love is:
"Love is the master key that opens the gates of happiness." - Oliver Wendell Holmes

32. Read the newspaper:
Almost everyday.

33. Take walks in the rain:
Whatever for?

34. Drive:
A Honda Civic

35. Like to drive fast?
Depends if it’s a long straight road and there’s no passengers with me

36. Been out of the country:
Yes

37. Been in love:
Definitely a yes!

38. Ran away from home:
Never

39. Been on stage:
Yes, various events during secondary school, university and work.

40. Judged other people by their clothing:
Don’t judge but just wonder

41. Are you trendy?
Not really. I’m just a simple person

42. Something that happened to you in 1995?
The year I entered university

43. Last thing you said aloud?
“Hi babe”, to a colleague who passed by

44. What colour is your toothbrush?
Maroon

45. Last thing you bought?
Petrol for my car

46. Best ice cream flavour?
Vanilla

47. Last person you hugged?
My daughter

48. Do you talk a lot?
Maybe only with my family. With others, I tend to listen more

49. Is laughter the best medicine?
Most definitely. There’s nothing like a good laugh to brighten up the day

50. Do you prefer giving smiles or getting them?
Both but to give, I must know the person. It’s hard to smile at total strangers

51. Do you admit when are wrong?
Always

Yippee...!!

Tomorrow has been declared a holiday! And I'll be taking leave on Friday. So, a long weekend for me. Yeah....!

I just want to relax and do nothing.

If you guys are taking a long break, have a great one!

I know I will :)